This morning I was moderating all the art and writings that had come in over the past hours and I took my time over it with the view that it is my turn to do the features today. I am so glad it that I get to do the features once every month as there is always so much wonderful art and writings for me to choose from, if anything too much!
The one that inspired this feature made me think of why we do what we do and why it is so important that we do. For each poem I chose a picture that for me encapsulated the spirit of the writing.
Cosimopiro, you inspired this week’s features with your most wonderful poem. 🙂
I see you
gorge
on generous banquets,
python like,
swallowing whole
to gratify
a hollow unending
without
ever savouring
its many delicacies.
I watch you
quaff
aged juice
from the blood of grapes,
imbibing
intoxicating potion
into numb stupor
but
never relishing
divine nectar.
I spot you
pluck
tender, ripe fruit
craving fingers
bruising,
covetous lips
sucking soft flesh
but
only tasting
bitter seeds.
I hear you
rant
the madness
of self delusions
reverberating
in a vacuum
of unrealized dreams
without
ever listening
to the silence between.
Together we stand
gazing
into clear night sky
scanning
our destinies
across time’s hardened face
but
you only see
the darkness
betwixt the stars.
I recognize you,
restless,
eyeing me,
reflecting
my own wilderness
in waiting,
ready to spring
and capture
my final
berry of grace…….
…….and I wonder…….
is it best
to have company
in the void
or to feel lonely
in Paradise?
If I was to share
this morsel of joy
will it satiate
your wanton appetites
or
will I stand
where you are now,
an echo
skipping
in our emptiness
across the flat plains
of infinity
searching
for watering holes
to quench
our thirsty wanderings?
I see you
behind the looking glass
see me,
with your pleading eyes
and I with wary glance
pass the flesh
of my fruit
into your outstretched hand,
the seed of which
I keep safe
to plant in my heart,
to watch over it
in its dormant state
and nurture it
when it takes root
and buds,
in the hope
that it will bear
more fruit.
© Cosimopiro
… and here’s Martin’s wonderful image to go with it.
The Heart of Everything
© Martin Muir
This next poem touched me deeply:
I think about God and I see Him in my situation
this situation entangled in thorns and priceless misery,
whenever I move forward I am behind myself
living my life trying to catch up,
but I stumble and I fall in slow motion into that quagmire of grief
I am lost without you, and am lost with you,
If only I could learn how to breathe other people’s stale air,
if only I could live on the stale emotions of others,
and on their salty breaths and recycled kisses
my lovers and your lovers exhausted and torn up in the blender
of divorce and no reconciliation,
please don’t come back to me
God doesn’t murder, He gives us numbers in the womb
we are living, and we breathe, the ecstatic air,
I don’t think about yesterday, and the sand that stuck
to my toes on the beach, and the kisses you left upon my heart,
I can’t think about what broke us apart, the waves that crash,
and the imposssible task of holding onto them,
Time slipped through the cracks of my dreams,
my daughter has grown and is the teenager I once was
but I was silly then, full of naitivite dressed badly,
and hid behind a shy smile then
the illness in our souls became the signatures we signed
in our sleep and we still dream to escape to
we forge similarities to make the differences bearable,
we’ve attempted to love each other, but only end up
loving ourselves,
pretending we haven’t lived through this nauseuous nightmare before
Pretending we just met, when we’ve known each other for centuries,
we married ourselves to the lies we believe, and we can’t commit to
the memories that we lived,
I’ll write until I can find the words to paste the years we ripped to shreds
and wasted back together
I’ll dance until I spin myself useless and faint dead away,
until I can get back to the precise moment you walked away,
to the second you knew you didn’t love me
to the moments my voice sickened you,
to the time you became my jailor, and I lived the sentence
of missing you, and spent years trying to get back there to that
space I offended you, when we offended each other, and spit each
other out like chewed tobacco,
when our uses outlived us,
when God seemed to forget us,
when the angels stopped singing, and the demons descended
and the howling of our anger became the reasons we stayed
pasted to the wounds of our past, and to the expressions of our emptiness
when loneliness became the beating heart of our existences
and we wandered through hundreds of miles of wilderness
the dishevelled forest of our lust, a lost cause of animal instinct
the grave of the intimacy we lost, the priest that read us our last rites
when God couldn’t keep us alive anymore, when dying seemed better
I bit the ecstatic air like bits of glass to my tongue, like chunks of diamond
to my teeth,
breaking and chipping teeth until my gums bled the life of me away,
sometimes there isn’t a happy ending and lovers are really strangers
who got confused in the rain.
© copyrightmisfit19652009
I found the same sense of connection in this image:
Randy Montheith Running thru the fire
© Randy Monteith
… and again a deep sense of connection and longing:
Dear skin and hands and all things sweet and pure
containing legends deep within the bone,
and holding old romance in their allure
pull me in dreams of you and me alone –
Alone in white rooms, fantasized by me;
alone in orphaned gardens, saved by you;
alone in white-washed castles by the sea;
alone in meadows pale and soaked in dew.
The beauty of your life is intricate
although you may not see its rambling grace;
you’re made of candlelight and fires lit
to warm the pallid shadows on my face.
My spirit flies to you and now I’m whole,
and sweetly, gently, I embrace your soul.
© lilynoelle
… perfectly expressed here:
vampvamp lovers
© vampvamp
… this is why we put ourselves out there:
Thanks to a class offered by a
soft spoken South American professor
who preaches the gospel of creativity
I am whole again.
Seeking the power of steel beams and girders
I had tossed my Muse (my dearest friend) into the sea.
I needed muscle
not watercolor dreams leading nowhere.
I learned to weld and solder
to read blueprints and gauge distances
to hammer and sweat in the sun
until mine was as big as his.
I forgot how to cry.
Finally one day in class (for three credits)
I walked alone across the bridge that
I had built with my own two hands
and found my Muse
waiting
like an indulgent mother
for me to call her name.
Now words and colors and images
leap and dance before my eyes
and I paint golden wildflowers on my bridge
and I sing purple poems
and my tears fall freely now
because I have come home again,
transformed.
It is indeed a form of prayer.
© Maggie Vlazny
…and here this feeling of connection and being part of everything and being yourself is perfectly shown:
MoonSpiral The Guardians
© MoonSpiral
… and a great sense of being part of it all and being yourself:
Upon waking, before the whale’s sleep drives in and
out of my eyes, I sit: taking in, taking out, turning off—
turning on until a smile births on my face in the shape
of a lightening dark spark—breathing and blooming
in the heart of infinity’s shadow. I am dead; and
more alive than any thing. My heart grows a mouth,
here, beneath and above the pitch of the sea—a baby
in the arms of a forgetful young mother; a whale singing
down the shipping lane sea. When my thumbs are
the only ones still breathing, I rise, a rice-paper basket,
empty, in the fist of the universe, a photo of love
in my pocket, beating with the fragrance of fruit.
© Sesheshet 8 14 2010
… and the connection continues:
Ingz after the rain has come
© Ingz
… ending it with a heartwrenching poem that almost made me cry:
sometimes I get soo angry
soo mad I cant even cry
holding that blade to my skin
contemplating suicide
I think of all the times
that I’ve been pushed to the break
my hands are shaking with hate
I dont know how much more I can take
I wish the world would grow silent
everyone would just go away
lifes becoming too much of a struggle
each and every fucking day
I put on my smile
I’m happy is my constant lie
when deep down I am screaming
wishing I could just die
give myself freedom and peace
its not too much to ask
but my mind is slipping
no longer in my grasp
I have too many secrets
that I just cant get past
but I smile real bright
cover it all with my mask
I’ve got alot of issues
that already weight me down
but people keep fucking with me
pushing me deeper into the ground
I dont know what to say
to make my life alright
sometimes I’m soo lonely
I cry myself to sleep at night
then there are the days
where I dont want to leave my bed
I hate it soo much
these voices in my head
I just want to end it all
the pain is to much
the emotions are spilling
I’m loosing grip on the clutch
I want to rip out of my skin
breakaway and be free
no more pain or anger
I just want to be the old me
I want to smile
I want to love life
I dont want to hate myself
I dont want to hold this knife
I’m sorry…I can’t
and you’ll always wonder why
I just needed to be freed
and now I am….goodbye.
© JaNae Boswell
… and leaving you with an image that shows all the longing and heart breaking loneliness of JaNae’s poem:
cerphotography so much emotion
© cerphotography
I hope you enjoy this week’s features, Sybille xo